So yes! Here I am! A month and 4 days into my sobriety! I know this is still very early days! But i have made so much progress in such a short time, and I cant get enough of this feeling!
What feeling??? This high on life feeling.
While drinking, I always felt exhausted, had no time for exercising, never mind reading a book. I was constantly anxious and scared. Had almost no self esteem! Sleepless nights, brought on by alcohol.
But I have these 3 beautiful little boys, and I gave that what was left of me, I poured my last energy into them, after my classes (I do cooking classes for kiddies) we would all go home, they would play on their bicycles, I prepared dinner. We bathed, ate, watched a bit of tv, and then of to bed! I would read to them, pray and kiss them goodnight.
I had nothing else to do, so I would pour myself a glass of wine…in some fucked up way, rewarding myself for doing all of this on my own! Ps! I’m divorced. But this is something for another blog!
I realised that this is not me! I dont want to be this person. I booked myself into rehab, the boys went to their dads. For me to get back when I’m back on my feet.
The second week in rehab I started going to the gym..I actually got alot of sleep for the first time in 5 years! And you know what!? My energy levels shot through the roof.
And I decided to take my life back!!
So what alcohol stole from me, I’m taking back! My time, my energy, my love for life itself, to be the best mom I can be for my kids, my sleeping habits and my whole life in general!
So here is to myself! Well done! My first 24,8km bike ride done and dusted in an hour, five minutes! Yay.
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