No one said that this will be easy! No one said this will be fun. No one told you that this journey called life would be this hard!
But just as you are about to throw in the towel, God throws it back to you, and says, “here wipe your face, you are almost there!”
And this has been my truth for the last 2 months!
I was about to just give up completely! My whole life was a mess! Divorce, moving, pregnancy and birth. Tough relationships. Thought I was strong, I could handle all of it! How wrong was I!!
The blackouts, the anxiety, the guilt, the shame!!!
Until one morning! I broke down completely. Here it was! Finally! Is this what I became? Is this now it! ROCK BOTTOM!!!
I had to reach this place, in order to become the woman I always wanted to be! To have compassion for others in this situation. For me to love me again. For me to be the best version of me, and to fulfill the plans that the Lord has for me! For me to be the best mom I can be! So in order for me to become this, I first had to reach that God forsaken place…My rock bottom!! The loneliest, darkest place you will ever have to face!
Today! One month and 2 weeks later! I can smile again, no excuse me!! Laugh until I cry! The sun is shining again, I have the overcast once now and again, but now I can face them with a bold bravery I never had! I am not alone! You are never alone!!!
I still have a long journey ahead of me, but for once I am genuinely so excited for what is to come, I can’t contain myself!
There is always light at the end…just before you give up, around the bend, your reward is awaiting you!
Where you only see one path of footsteps, that is when the Lord carried you! Be brave! Be strong! Be you!